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Name: the Z
Gender: Male
Interests: I hate change, but am always changing. I love life, but am slowly dying from it. I speak parts of 3 foreign languages, but can not express true beauty. How do you express a lingering gaze, a broken heart, a single tear? A snow covered field, a color streaked sky, a single ray of sunshine? A life, a death, a first breath, or a last? The simplicity is stunningly complex, the commoness is extraordinary, and the passion is undyingly alive.
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Yahoo:  dejavu24x7@yahoo.com
Member Since:
8/3/2004
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| I've got this friend who asks really amazing questions. This time he asked me if I believed in objective truth and if so, what are the standards for measuring it. Actually, this is part of a much longer conversation we've been having about the meaning of life in general, but here is my response:
"Wow! What great questions, man.
The standard we should use to determine objective truth is... Well,
obviously, a good starting point is the Bible... even though I hate to
say it because as much as there are amazing, beautiful truths in the
Bible, there is also a lot there that tells me that I am in sin... and
that doesn't "feel good" to me.
Like I said earlier... my main struggle with this stuff is that it
seems to me that EVERYONE wants to present what they call objective
truth. And even though there may be many similarities in all these
"objective truths," there are also many areas that are gray, meaning
that people can't really agree on them. They still try to tell you what
is wrong and right exactly though--in many cases this is according to
their interpretation of the Bible... in some cases they think that it's
the difference between heaven and hell and the Bible never even
mentions anything about it.
So yes, I think that there is objective truth, but I'm so sick of
everyone claiming to know what it is that I've determined to find my
own truths in the sense that what I believe will work for me in my life
in order for me to get what I want, which is to be
happy/fulfilled/whatever you want to call that feeling. (some people
try to say, "Oh, Aaron! Happiness is a temporary feeling. Joy is
eternal! ...I don't care what the hell you call it, it's that feeling
where deep down you feel good.) And also, my other main life goal is not go to hell. Those are my
two main goals in life.
You might notice that I have a bigger goal of Not going to Hell than I
do of Going to Heaven. I get angry at God sometimes if He's really
exactly like the Bible describes Him, because it doesn't make sense to
me why He would make me with so many desires that are polar opposites
of what they "should" be in order to "inherit the kingdom of heaven,"
which is a phrase I don't claim to fully understand, I simply know that
it's something that we should desire... apparently it's something good.
So for now, sure. Objective truth is out there. We can know it to some
degree... I think a lot of it is learned through our senses and
perceptions and feelings, even though these things can lie
to us, but as long as we strive for a higher plateau where values like
love, giving, gratitude, achievement, accomplishment, happiness,
compassion, and the like are commonplace--and we truly strive for these
things, doing our best not to ever hurt another human (which naturally
follows in the presence of the qualities I first mentioned)... I don't
know. Actually. I genuinely don't know what that means as long as we
have these qualities. Then... we'll live a happier life, I know that.
But as far as my second goal? Well, I guess that's where religion comes
in.
That's why I hope and pray every day of my life, not verbally every
day, but in spirit that God will forgive me. Because if it is true that
I am such a sinner, He is my only hope.
It's like I'm Princess Lea and R2D2 is God.
Anyways...
I've given up a lot of the struggle... I just didn't want to do it
anymore. It hurt too much... I didn't feel like it was worth it. I
didn't see the reward in it. I just wasn't feeling it. I didn't want it
enough, so it stopped making sense to prolong the pain.
I hope that struggling to do everything I *think* I should probably do
and struggling not do anything I *think* I shouldn't do (key word is
obviously *think* because I don't think anyone really knows exactly
where the lines are) is not a requirment for getting into heaven and
staying out of hell.
If it is, I'm fucked.
For now at least.
...but that caveat is only there to try to make me feel better.
It doesn't help much.
So, for now, I live the happiest life I can. And it is happy. It's damn
happy most of the time. I love it! I'm constantly growing and
struggling with different life lessons and successes and failures.
These are obviously different struggles than the one mentioned before,
because not only do I logically believe they are worthwhile struggles,
I feel like they are. And it feels great. It feels like a life!
I just hope that's not all it is.
Does that answer your question at all?"
So, back to you, my beloved audience. I was thinking to myself, "Why should I post this since it's so personal?"
And the reason I have decided to post it is because I think these are issues that a lot of people struggle with constantly, and I want to give you an example of just being completely honest with oneself.
One of the qualities I strive for in life and on a daily basis is sincerity and honesty.
This is an example of that.
If you learn something from it, I will be honored.
P.S. If you have any unique perspectives on my thoughts, or related thoughts that are completely your own, let me know! I'd love to hear them.
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| Sometimes I wonder if they knew who I was, they'd try to lock me up in an insane asylum.
*insert maniacal laughter here*
I see them everywhere. Zombies.
Locked into the ideas imposed upon them by society. Afraid. Alone. Overcompensating.
The greatest men have always dreamed bigger, tried harder and failed harder than anyone else was willing.
It's as simple as saying "Hello" to the stranger passing on the sidewalk. I mean, shit, what if he says Hello back, then what? You know? What the HELL will we do then?
I don't know why we sometimes try so hard not to try. We try so hard to pretend to try, too.
The other day I high fived a perfect stranger passing me on the sidewalk.
Haha... I made BOTH of our days. And it's so easy to decide NOT to give value to the world around us. We "save" our value within ourselves, fearful that we won't have enough to go around. Then, just like that, suddenly we don't. Don't fool yourself, you scared, lost soul.
That's what we are. Sheep. Haha! So demeaning! But God said it, not me, remember that. We're so sure of ourselves. We believe in what we do, because we just KNOW.
You know what I know? I know that when I want to laugh, I laugh. When I want to cry, I cry. When I want to sing, I'm going to fucking sing.
Because life is too short and too hard to pretend that I don't want to.
I go after what I want. THIS IS THE ONLY LIFE I GET! There's no next time around.
And all I have is this moment. Right now. I don't have the minute that just passed. I don't have yesterday. I don't have the minute that's going to come. All I have and all I'll EVER have is RIGHT NOW. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now.
Now. Take a deep breath. Exhale. Promise me you won't waste it. Promise me you'll take a risks. Promise me you'll allow yourself to feel like you've always wanted. Feel scared! Feel lonely! Feel Rejected! Feel Angry! Feel Happy! Feel Ecstasy! Feel Free!
Speak every word you say like you mean it.
Don't be afraid to be the leader! Others will love you for it and will want to step up as well.
Who says you can't be the leader? Who makes the rules in this place!!!!!!??????
I'll tell you who does. You do. And if you let other people make the rules, then you did exactly that and LET them.
I see millions of people walking around. Zombies.
And they want so bad to sing. They're so fucking money, and they don't even know it.
Start small. Do one thing a day that freaks you out... but you know there's not REALLY a rule against it.
Maybe you sing at the top of your lungs in parking lot while you're alone (haha, that takes BALLS!).
Maybe you say hello to everyone you see.
Or maybe you just smile. A big-ass, not-a-care-in-the-world smile. You smile because you know you can, and you don't give a fuck who sees it.
You smile because you realize that YOU make the rules. And your rules feel GOOD. So fucking good.
People will notice, by the way, so be prepared to be out of your comfort zone. Haha! Possibly WAY out. But you're ok with that. You're ok with being out of our comfort zone. Because this is the only life you've got.
This is the only life I've got, and I'd rather live one day than survive for a lifetime.
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| I'm seriously starting to doubt my leverage. I mean, I've got some... it's there... but I don't know. I might need more, and that's scary.
What a fucking hard thing to commit to hitting the bottom. Well, if that's what it takes, then so be it. I'll knock the bottom out of fucking hell. ...'cause i'm going to the top... God knows I'm going to the top. And you'll hear my name again. You'll know my name. | | |
| Hahaaaaaaaa you perverts. Deciding to read my blog because of the title. You suck!!!
I lost track of the no sales. But it doesn't matter. I'm going to press through until I get this. I just don't give up anymore. It's not in my nature. In fact... I've forgotten how.
My name is Aaron Zauber.
I'm a champion.
Nice to meet you.
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| www.youtube.com/watch?v=EnahALAp5vc
click it, or paste it in your thingy. Whatever you do, this will be the most well-spent minute and a half of your day. Or your money back.
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